"Fuck what you know. You need to forget about what you know, … Forget about what you think you know about life, about friendship, and especially about you and me… stop trying to control everything and just let go. LET GO!”
"It’s a lie. It’s a bunch of sad strangers photographed beautifully, and… all the glittering assholes who appreciate art say it’s beautiful cause that’s what they wanna see. But the people in the photos are sad, and alone… But the pictures make the world seem beautiful, so… the exhibition is reassuring which makes it a lie, and everyone loves a big fat lie."
i kind of miss being religious. i used to always go to sunday school and church before my soccer games on sunday mornings… my mom would always take me. i kind of miss that comforting feeling. i hate thinking that i gave up hope. it’s scary. but idk. it just doesn’t make sense to me anymore. like i hate to say it but science makes more sense to me. i mean, there’s still a part of me that believes, i’m not gonna completely rule it out. but idk, i guess i just don’t have that much faith anymore. i think once you go through a horrible experience in your life, you kind of just wonder what you did to deserve it, and you think that if there really was someone out there looking out for you, he wouldn’t cause you so much pain. i know that’s a really selfish way of looking at it, but idk. maybe one day i’ll reconnect and start to get my faith back, but for now i’m just uncertain.
anyway i was just watching charlie brown’s christmas special….
this is my favorite part…
"And there were in the same country shepherds abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night. And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them: and they were sore afraid. And the angel said unto them, Fear not: for, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord. And this shall be a sign unto you; Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger. And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God, and saying, Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men.”
…”that’s what christmas is all about, Charlie Brown.”